I am proud to grow up together with my dear elder sister, who is an artist and child art educator. When I was still a kid at school, I was fortunately good at every subject, but I wanted to be a surgeon due to the major surgeon I went through at the age of seven. When I was in high school. I was keen on biology, and my dream was then to be a biologist; however, I went for mathematics when I stepped into the university campus, where the four years’ mathematics training (I am so grateful now) transformed me wholly at least on a philosophical and cognitive level. Afterwards, I dropped out of the postgraduate program when the cryptography I was doing in that environment did not agree with my values. After being a product manager in a software company for a few years, I re-stepped into the campus for another postgraduate program; this time it was bioinformatics, which I thought was interdisciplinary between computer science and biology. However, the further exploration into bioinformatics in the first two years’ of my PhD only disenchanted me and made me feel like a vagrant, and dragged me into a series of confusion: the meaning of the career-centred academia, the relation between me and beliefs, etc. I needed some philosophical thought here. In my second year, I devoted a lot of time to artificial intelligence, especially the popular deep learning stuff, only to catch a whiff of inexplicable subjectivity. I still needed some philosophical thought here. I attempted to coherently think about all of my detached experiences in different disciplines (including my bilingual environment: English and Chinese) and make sense of them. However, the pursuit of coherence made me even suffer more until I realized that I had to get out of this logic. I started mindfulness practice, thanks to my vivacious wife, who is a writer and journalist, for letting meditation into my awareness the year before. The meditation and my years’ experience had meshed so well, and I began to feel the power of mindfulness in less than no time. Meditation has enabled me to practice philosophy unbelievably from the neuronal, cognitive, psychological and even spiritual level. Therefore I am so fortunate now to know that the best way to debunk the world is to debunk the mind. Mind connects all of my past experiences and the insights into mind via meditation gradually demystify the world I am in, a place fraught with desires, intentions, mental violence and subconsciousness. Something that I thought was so different is actually not, because humans are humans, no matter where they are or what they are doing.
Thanks to the mindfulness, the biggest paradox comes up: I am consciously observing my mind while I am controlled by the subconsciousness of my mind, who am I? When I am viewing things from a standpoint beyond the ingrained prejudice, intelligence and logic, I, as a human, genuinely feel a sense of animal. Yes, I am just an animal perhaps. The opinions, viewpoints and even my philosophical thinking can only exist and make sense in the framework of being an animal.
However, I still firmly believe the importance to cultivate some values to modulate the dynamics of the mind to the degree that people can be free from suffering.
With this thought, it has been my first time in life to gain a comfortable position to fully enjoy the diversity of human minds without being distracted by the discomfort and unease when interacting with them, though I am still seeking a balance between “feeling the diversity” and “being the diversity” within the dynamics of consciousness and consciousness.
This is NOT a personal homepage, but you can find my academic profile in other places. In this website (the one you are viewing), I put down an incomplete list of values I have been cherishing. I am sure many people all over the world are sharing the same mindset with me. If you are one of them, I just let you know that you are not alone. If you would like to connect me, please drop me an email or follow me on Twitter.